If only you could see me now

I've never felt so confused before.

I hate things being so complicated. Complicated things always put me in a spot. I don't know what is right or wrong. I don't know what is the best or worst. It's either I hurt myself or someone else. There is no such thing as win-win situation.

The decision I made today was very harsh but I think the only right thing for me to do is to be selfish and give myself what I truly deserve. I really have a bad feeling about this but I am prepared to face the consequences.

If only you could see me now.